1 - I’m 20 years old, I’m pregnant, and it was unplanned. this would be pretty obvious if you’ve been following me for more than 30 seconds, but i figured i’d better lead with it, since it makes up a pretty huge and important aspect of my life right now. i’m having a baby girl, and i love her more than anything. she was a surprise but i know she’s going to be the best part of my life, and i couldn’t be more excited to get to meet her.
2 - in real life, i use the term ‘nugget’ a lot. i use it to describe anything cute, or so ugly-it’s-cute, or so-fat-it’s-cute, or really, just anything i love. baby nuggets. puppy nuggets. a term of endearment that skybehr hears a lot is ‘silly nugget.’
3- speaking of skybehr, that’s baby behr’s daddy, and my boyfriend of a year and (almost) two months. we live together, currently with two roommates - which makes life a little more difficult than it has to be sometimes, but we’re looking for our own place.
4- i wear glasses because i’m blind as a bat. without them i can’t see anything other than fuzzy, blurry, colorful blobs. i really like sunglasses and have a pretty nice collection of them, but i never get to wear them. i like ray-bans knockoffs and the kind of big, retro sunglasses that kind of make you look like a bug. but a fashion-forward bug. y’know, like one chic cricket. a gorgeous grasshopper.
5- i love pillows. if i had my way, my entire bed would be covered with pillows. i sleep with a bunch of pillows, including one huge body pillow, which i cannot fall asleep without. i don’t like the pillows filled with down/feathers, because they always end up poking out and scratching your face. when i was little, those pillows horrified me, because i just pictured all the birds/geese that in my young mind must have been running around naked and featherless just so that i could have a pillow.
6- i like superheroes. or at least the idea of superheroes.
7- when i was younger i absolutely hated soda. carbonation freaked me out. the way it sizzled in my throat and my nose and made my eyes water, not to mention the burping. it was like being assaulted by a soft drink, and i refused to drink it.
8- most of the time, now (at least when i’m around friends/family) i call soda ‘rokie’ because my littlest brother called it that when he was a baby.
9- i have one whole brother, one half brother, and three step brothers. i’m the only girl.
10- my parents divorced when i was five. after it happened, i slept with a picture of my parents, happy and smiling on their wedding day, that was in a frosted glass frame. one night when i was getting out of bed, it fell on the floor and broke. i made it a new frame out of popsicle sticks and fluffy pom-poms. i still have it.
11- these facts are going to become increasingly shorter the longer this list goes on, because i’m an inherently lazy person.
12- when i was little i wanted to be a vet, because i loved (and still do love) any and all animals (except spiders. fuck spiders). then i realized that being a vet would most likely involve sticking needles in said animals, or cutting them open, and i was done with wanting to be a vet.
13- i’m terrified of getting my blood drawn/having needles in me for an extended period of time. that’s gonna suck when i inevitable get an in and potentially an epidural while giving birth. the pain doesn’t bother me, but the sensation of a needle being in my skin and either sucking stuff out or putting stuff in is irrationally scary to me.
14- flying also sort of scares me. i’ve only been on a plane twice. (Disney vacation). it just seems unnatural to me. if i ever had to fly over a large body of water, i’d have to take a sleeping pill. flying over miles and miles of fish piss… oh man. i felt so bad for tom hanks in castaway. i would never make it if i was stranded on an island. (i cried so hard when he lost wilson).
15- i love movies. gus van sant and martin scorsese are two of my favorite directors. i also love tv shows. breaking bad, dexter, true blood, game of thrones, Sons of Anarchy, etc etc. if there’s been a good show on tv in the past 5+ years, i’ve watched it. i don’t have cable, so i watch netflix an inordinate amount. (suggest good shows/movies!)
16- i thought that baby behr was a boy up under the gender scan. i always had dreams i would have a little boy. i can’t remember all the boy names i liked, but some of them were silas, avery, harlan, cassius, and now i really like indigo for a boy.
17- i’ve been using tumblr for almost three years now. i’m not-so-mildly obsessed.
18- i didn’t have friends when i was younger, i had books. i was the biggest book worm you’ve ever met in your life. i still read a lot - chuck palahniuk is one of my favorite authors. i love writing that is visceral and includes vivid imagery.
19 - i am running out of ideas for facts.
20- my longest relationship was 3 years. it was a terrible relationship. the whole high school boyfriend thing. i was convinced for the longest time that i wasn’t worth anything, and therefore willing to put up with a lot when it came to dealing with a boyfriend.
21- i used to smoke weed. a lot. at one point, almost all day, every day. i also smoked cigarettes up until i found out i was pregnant. i didn’t start smoking either of those things until i turned eighteen.
22- i’m diagnosed with rapid-cycling bipolar disorder.
23- i wear three pieces of jewelery, every day. a diamond and ruby ring on my right ring finger that my dad and step-mom got me for my 16th birthday, a silver thumb ring on my left hand, and a glass pendant with a mustard seed in it that i found in an abandoned house.
24- i have one tattoo, and i want to be covered in them at the end of my life.
25 - i’m writing this from a mcdonalds with wireless, and i think they’re closing, so i’m gonna leave before things get awkward.