strange & radiant

I just went to a baby yard sale and I got what was probably $150 worth of carter’s brand...

Sun, 19 May 2013 16:17:01 -0400

I just went to a baby yard sale and I got what was probably $150 worth of carter’s brand (babies r us) clothes for just $15! And they’re all absolutely adorable and either brand new or only worn once :) so I’m a happy momma right now ~

akanedee: if you ever call me annoying, even if it’s just jokingly, the chances of me ever speaking...

Sun, 19 May 2013 14:00:47 -0400

akanedee:

if you ever call me annoying, even if it’s just jokingly, the chances of me ever speaking to you again are slim to none because I’ll be so afraid that every little word or sound that comes out of my mouth will aggravate you and make you cringe and hate my existence

I’ve been prescribed seroquel as a sleep aid for insomnia/bipolar treatment for three years, my dose...

Sun, 19 May 2013 03:44:29 -0400

I’ve been prescribed seroquel as a sleep aid for insomnia/bipolar treatment for three years, my dose leveling out at 400mg. When I found out I was pregnant I went down to 200 mg and planned on stopping completely, only to find out how completely dependant on it my body was for sleep. I went back to my original 400 mg dose a few weeks ago due to a few severe bipolar episodes. Now though, I’ve been doing a lot of reading and I’m terrified that it’s going to or already has harmed the baby in some way. What if she has problems with development now, and it’s my fault? What if somethings wrong with her and it’s because she was exposed to seroquel in the womb? I would fucking hate myself, forever. So I’ve made a plan to go back to 200 mg for a full month, and then reduce to 100 mg for the month after that. Depending on how my body responds to those reductions, I’ll continue to reduce until I’m at 25 mg, hopefully around the time the baby is born. After that, I’ll aim to get off of the med completely. it’s disgusting how dependant I am on it for sleep. It’s like my body can’t even enter a natural sleep anymore - like it doesn’t know how. All because I blindly started taking this medicine when my doctor handed it to me, because I was desperate for some sort of help. Let me tell you, it wasn’t fucking worth it. I might have had broken sleep before, but at least I was sleeping naturally, without being practically fucking sedated. I’m terrified that there’s nothing I can do now - that the damage is already done. But I will do everything in my power to try to stop taking this medication, as soon as possible, without risking mine or my daughter’s health. I just wish I wasn’t so fucking stupid. I wish that when my doctor said it was FINE to keep taking it, I had said no, and asked for a reduction plan. Because now my daughter is six months old, and she’s been exposed to seroquel for all of that time. I fucking hate myself right now. I should have been strong enough, for her, to stop taking it - months ago. I feel like the biggest piece of shit. And if there’s something wrong with Nova - I will never forgive myself.

throwindown-inthedirtydirtysouth: New perspective on what...

Sat, 18 May 2013 18:03:47 -0400

throwindown-inthedirtydirtysouth:

New perspective on what mothers usually find “annoying”

23 weeks + 5 days! She’s a big buff baby ~ #september2012...

Sat, 18 May 2013 16:58:54 -0400

23 weeks + 5 days! She’s a big buff baby ~ #september2012 #pregnant #pregnancy #babybehr #babybump #bump #youngmom #babymama #baby #preggo

"The feelings that hurt most, the emotions that sting most, are those that are absurd; the longing..."

Sat, 18 May 2013 14:40:41 -0400

“The feelings that hurt most, the emotions that sting most, are those that are absurd; the longing for impossible things, precisely because they are impossible; nostalgia for what never was; the desire for what could have been; regret over not being someone else; dissatisfaction with the world’s existence. all these half-tones of the soul’s consciousness create in us a painful landscape, an eternal sunset of what we are.”

- Fernando Pessoa (via forkedvoyage)

foodopia: raspberry walnut tart: recipe here

Sat, 18 May 2013 13:08:27 -0400

foodopia:

raspberry walnut tart: recipe here

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18s: Alive Again

Sat, 18 May 2013 12:46:25 -0400

18s:

Alive Again

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Sat, 18 May 2013 12:26:54 -0400

skybehr fell asleep with one hand on my tit. men ~

Fri, 17 May 2013 00:38:57 -0400

skybehr fell asleep with one hand on my tit. men ~

can anyone who had an epidural tell me what their experience was like? i have a severe phobia of...

Thu, 16 May 2013 22:22:14 -0400

can anyone who had an epidural tell me what their experience was like? i have a severe phobia of needles but i also, naturally, aren’t a huge fan of extreme pain… so im conflicted on whether or not to try to plan to give birth without an epidural or with one.

Cutest mama-to-be around #cute #girl #glasses #blueeyes...

Thu, 16 May 2013 15:10:51 -0400

Cutest mama-to-be around #cute #girl #glasses #blueeyes #shorthair

She’s getting so big lately, I feel like a lil roly poly...

Thu, 16 May 2013 12:29:08 -0400

She’s getting so big lately, I feel like a lil roly poly #pregnant #pregnancy #babybehr #babygirl #babybump #bump #baby #preggo #youngmom #belly

Are you single?

Thu, 16 May 2013 02:04:20 -0400

no. ill have been with skybehr a year on june third

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So… I’m following 1,002 people. Which is way too many. So over the next couple days,...

Wed, 15 May 2013 23:42:33 -0400

So… I’m following 1,002 people. Which is way too many. So over the next couple days, I’m gonna be going through and deleting a bunch of blogs. If you want me to follow you and I don’t already - let me know. I’m trying to do an (almost) complete overhaul on who I’m following/who’s following me. If I’ve interacted with you/like your posts a lot, don’t worry about getting unfollowed

I had a dream that nova had been born, and in the dream it was just a whole day of me taking care of...

Wed, 15 May 2013 21:12:11 -0400

I had a dream that nova had been born, and in the dream it was just a whole day of me taking care of her. Dressing her in the morning, feeding her, changing her, playing with her and putting her to bed. It was awesome. And then I woke up and was really sad, because it was like, oh no, novas back in my tummy :( being able to feel her move and see her poking at me has made this entire situation feel that much more intense. I can’t wait until she’s here and I can hold her. Even though I know that once she is here, I’m probably gonna be like, ‘awe I wish she was back in my tummy where she was nice and safe!’ I just know she’s gonna grow up so fast, so I keep vacillating between wishing she were here right now, and wishing I could stay pregnant forever.